I haven't written in a while. It's honestly been a bit difficult to keep up with while managing life. Work is hard. and stressful. But everyone has been so kind and supportive of me. I had a seizure yesterday morning but still went to our little work celebration. It's been hard to leave the house lately, but it's a little easier when people are so kind.

I'm honestly just really burnt out... It's difficult but I truly want to succeed and I know I can- I just feel like my days have been a bit of a loop lately. I feel stuck in a "choice paralysis" kind of way. I'm not sure what to do right now and have felt pretty overwhelmed. I'm not sure how to separate myself from it either. When I'm not working I'm usually just rotting and playing video games and watching tv.

I have actually been going out a bit more with friends! I went to a haunted house for the first time since I was a kid and it was SUPER fun!! I wore a pair of my slay boots though and absolutely DESTROYED my feet. They're still a little sore... We have a bunch more planned so I'm looking forward to it!

I missed my reading goal last month, I'll try to focus on that maybe. It's kind of hard to separate myself from the internet right now, it'd probably be good for me.

I've also been working on another site... I don't expect it to be releasable until later this year (I'm aiming for late November if I can!) it's another site that I had abandoned so it's been fun to fix up!

Whale... Since it's Friday Operator and I are probably gonna get crunk and finish Chapter 5 of Sally Face. It's my replay so I can get all of the achievements! I only have a few more to get! So satisfying~~

Ohh yeah! My birthday is coming up this month! 24 years... wild... It's a little (very) scary, but I'm grateful for my life. I never thought I'd get this far, so I'm kind of proud of myself. It makes me sad when people who are older than me complain about their age. Aren't you happy? You're so lucky to have a life... Even if life is shitty, there's always a chance things can get better. So many people never get that chance. Agh. it's weird and a very paraphrased version of how I feel about it. I'm just grateful for my life and everyone around me.

I'll try to pop in here more often! Idk how many people actually read this- but it's nice to have somewhere to put my thoughts. Journals have never really worked for me.

Bye bye for meow~~

OH WAIT!! MY BFF JUST TEXTED ME! She was a bridesmaid in a wedding!!! She's SOOOOO pretty!!! I hope I see her again soon! It's a little difficult now since she's moved... but I've never been to the state she's in now before so that could be exciting!!!!

ok bye for reals!

Wowie!! I launched my very first client today!!! It was honestly a bit of a mess when I was handed the case- but I think (hope!) I cleaned it up nicely! I'm excited for them :3
I also got a gift from one of my clients!! How nice ♡

I've honestly been a little scared of succeeding.. I'm not sure why. I wouldn't even know how to explain it if I did ( . ‸ .).. I of course want to do well.. I dunno what my deal is (ꃋᴖꃋ)

Operator and I started our annual rewatch of The Walking Dead! It's honestly such a guilty pleasure. I'm caught up on Dead City but we still need to watch TWD: Daryl Dixon and The Ones Who Lives. I'm really looking forward to the Daryl Dixon show! From what I know it has some really good plot points that I'm excited to see! I read a very minute amount of the comics and I honestly might pick it back up because it's like reading a whole new story!
However...I'm Not looking forward to TOWL.... we've seen a few episodes of it but it's so stressful!!! I just want Michonne and Rick to be together (੭ ;´ ⌂ `;)੭♡!!! I wish Carl was there too...but I'm excited to see Judith!! baby gorl..

I received a very nice message about my blog!! It honestly made me so happy ٩(^ᗜ^ )و ♡ ´-! I'm actually working on some new assets for my page!! I commission Koharustuki on vgen for my sona pieces!! They are genuinely so wonderful and amazing to work with ₍₍⚞(˶>ᗜ<˶)⚟⁾⁾! I'm excited for when they're completed ♡

Well... I think that's all for meow!! Bye bye~!

Wahhh.. I've been so tired (っ- ‸ - ς)... Honestly it feels like all the days are blending together.
(ᵕ ó ᴗ ò)

I'm having an appointment with my med doctor soon. My anxiety meds help, but it's too difficult for me to remember my dose in the middle of the day (╥ ω ╥). I don't mind the prescription I'm on- hopefully we can just work out a dosage adjustment and I won't have to switch to a new medication entirely. I've been having such a difficult time with my memory lately...forgetting things while doing them, not being able to remember simple things..I don't know what to do about it. But it's..frustrating...

I fear my memory issues might be affecting my work. I think I would do better at having a calendar and reminders set up. I try to pick up journaling every now and then, but I kind of. hate it. I genuinely don't know why- I enjoy blogging so why not that?

Working from home is such a privilege...I just struggle so much with the self-discipline to keep myself on track- I feel awful for feeling so bad the last couple weeks - I usually genuinely love going to the office- last week I just felt so..bluh... I feel like I have an internal clock that just. breaks this month. I try so hard to keep busy- I've been so busy that I didn't even fully register the 2nd this month. I've just been tired, anxious, and irritated. It's so frustrating. How do I let this go?

I went to the office this week and got my certificate! It says: "𝘙𝘦𝘤𝘰𝘨𝘯𝘪𝘻𝘦𝘥 𝘧𝘰𝘳 𝘩𝘦𝘳 𝘤𝘰𝘯𝘧𝘪𝘥𝘦𝘯𝘤𝘦, 𝘱𝘳𝘰𝘧𝘦𝘴𝘴𝘪𝘰𝘯𝘢𝘭𝘪𝘴𝘮, 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘶𝘯𝘸𝘢𝘷𝘦𝘳𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘤𝘰𝘮𝘮𝘪𝘵𝘮𝘦𝘯𝘵 𝘵𝘰 𝘴𝘶𝘤𝘤𝘦𝘴𝘴. 𝘛𝘩𝘳𝘰𝘶𝘨𝘩 𝘩𝘢𝘳𝘥 𝘸𝘰𝘳𝘬, 𝘳𝘦𝘴𝘪𝘭𝘪𝘦𝘯𝘤𝘦, 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘢 𝘱𝘰𝘴𝘪𝘵𝘪𝘷𝘦 𝘮𝘪𝘯𝘥𝘴𝘦𝘵, 𝘴𝘩𝘦 𝘤𝘰𝘯𝘴𝘪𝘴𝘵𝘦𝘯𝘵𝘭𝘺 𝘮𝘢𝘬𝘦𝘴 𝘢 𝘮𝘦𝘢𝘯𝘪𝘯𝘨𝘧𝘶𝘭 𝘪𝘮𝘱𝘢𝘤𝘵 𝘰𝘯 𝘵𝘩𝘰𝘴𝘦 𝘢𝘳𝘰𝘶𝘯𝘥 𝘩𝘦𝘳." And like. oh my gosh.. It's so nice- but a little overwhelming. Do I really have what it takes? I know I do, but when will I stop barring myself from moving forward? I gotta get through it though! And I will. Operator and I have a saying together; Imagine the perfume department from Spongebob, the only way out is through!

Waaaaa I love spongebob so much. [˶˃ ᵕ ˂˶]♡(˶ᵔ ᵕ ᵔ˶)
I know I can do it ✧⁺⸜(･ ᗜ ･ )⸝⁺✧

I got my eyes checked today~ and I'm getting new glasses! they're very cute (*´▽`*)❀.

I woke up exhausted today. I've been staying up too late the last few days (mostly working on this site LOL). I've been working on this page for a while now but finally feel comfortable posting it as it is right now. I'll be making lots of updates along the way!

My new job has me pretty stressed. I've been out a few days sick and I do worry about having to crunch my projects next week. I know I'll feel so much better after the certification, but I just hope I can pass everything.

My kitty has been recovering from surgery as well so that's been on my mind as well.

Overall, I know everything will be alright (´ ꒳ ` )♡